Monday, July 17, 2006

Chasing Dream

In my dream, I take something that is not mine. I know people are after me so I try to get away with my loot.

The place is Divisoria.

I am thinking: I just need to get out of here discreetly and calmly.

I walk into the rain. Afraid.

I start running when I'm sure that people are behind me.

I reach a barrio with small, disarrayed houses.

I walk around stairs and mazes.

Finally, I hide in a small house of a woman with a little girl.

Police enters into the house and I stay in my hiding spot: a bathtub with a net in the small sala. I am very visible to the police but he doesn't take me.

The little girl asks the police to leave.

The woman talks with the police.

I think she is charming her way into him so he will just let me go.

What could this dream mean? I don't even know what happened next.

Friday, July 07, 2006

On REM dreams

If you can't teach your heart to love and can't help it to forget, how then can you stop it from beating the same name in every waking moment and in many dreamrich nights? Suffering is much worse when you're dreaming -- where you're confronted by your Self without distractions; where you can't hide or deny or apologize. If you've had dreams where you're crying, you can give 'helpless' a new meaning. And even when the dreams are indeed sweet, you still wake up crying because you can't love as freely as you love in your dreams. Then you start the day with such thoughts. It seems you can't tell your self who NOT to love just as much as love can't touch you when you blatantly reject it. But how do you set yourself free without getting hurt?

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Old Friends

I saw my childhood friend Kel in my dreams last night. And I think I had a lucid dream episode but it happened rather too quickly and I can't recall the details now. The past nights have been about old friends; perhaps that's because I'm being surrounded by a lot of strangers in my waking hours. Maybe my subconscious is trying to imprint the faces of people I know to counter the loneliness caused by drowning in a sea of strangers and passers-by.

Sunday, July 02, 2006

REM Sleep


Researchers say that the dreams we get during a Rapid eye movement (REM) phase in our sleep can be more easily recalled compared to non-REM dreams.

There is one dream about E that I will never, never forget. It's what I call the Pavillion Dream. Of course it has to be strange -- it's a dream after all! In the dream, I am walking on the street leading to the public market of my hometown, then I saw some colored crepe papers dancing with the wind on the street, lining like a trail to somewhere. I follow the trail and it leads to an elevated pavillion, about 6 feet from the ground. I see a boy wearing glasses, he looks sadly at me, then walks down. That boy is my X bf. He did look younger in the dream, tho. Then after him, another X descends, this time he is followed by some of my classmates. I clearly see D in the scene. Then when it is clear to me that there is only one person left in the pavillion, he descends the steps, smiling, and I welcome him with wide open arms.

We embrace in joy and I am overwhelmed by a mix of emotions. The next scene shows a high school reunion, where classmates ask if he has popped the question yet. In wakelife, these classmates, G and K, bumped into us in the town plaza when we sort of dated for the first time many, many years ago. (Now I actually got confused there 'cause I thought it should have been made clear in the embrace that there's no point in popping the question anymore.)

This dream, which I had about 2 or 3 years ago, must've been a rather potent REM dream. Wiki says, "It is common to wake for a short time at the end of a REM phase." And I did wake up at about 2 a.m. after that dream. I woke up smiling and at peace. I prayed to God, "Let it happen, please."

Wiki also states that "people awakened during REM usually feel alert and refreshed. " Indeed, I felt fully alert and positively refreshed. It was a very beautiful dream.

I miss him now. I'm missing him and I have no idea where he is now. I know there's a chance that I'll get frustrated with him again. But we've been through a lot. I now know how much I can endure. And it's limitless. I am not optimistic for a happy ending. It is just clear to me now that between him and me, there is no chance for a bitter ending; because we're good friends. Whether he ends with someone else or I actually hook up with my big crush now, nothing can change the sweet bonding we have. So if ever I will end up with this good friend, I know life can't be too bad.

Maybe the dream has something to do with the fact that he did ask me to marry him over 3 years ago. This, I can clearly remember because it was my birthday. He didn't actually ask, he just said I should marry him instead of my then boyfriend, who was also asking pressuring me for a quick civil wedding. E read the boyfriend's text message on my phone, which was a follow up on the verbal proposal. In reaction, he said I should marry him instead. I didn't take it seriously. I knew he couldn't be serious, too. After all, he was in a relationship, too. Still, I played along and asked him -- When? He paused for a while, then he said, "2008." I said OK. And I was more than just half-serious. But I know it won't be too easy. Ever. Especially since I couldn't find the guts to break up with my boyfriend then. He, on the other hand, had a girlfriend whose life revolved around him and him alone.

I am 95% certain that E has forgotten all about 2008. The other 5% is praying for the Universe to remind him of it. Only if it's gonna be good for us.

E. Dream

Scene: The beach. I sit next to E, who wants me to sit between him and C; he just doesn't like sitting next to her. CJ-Broad is facilitating a quiz and I'm the next in line of participants. M, interestingly chubby, is still with R. I'm answering the quiz after her. Other classmates are present too albeit we don't interact.

Could mean? Again a dream with classmates. Maybe because E is returning soon. My subconscious is also encouraging me to believe that our story will have a different fate than what our other classmates (eg. M and R) had.

Saw my boss in another part of the dream. He talks to me about my internet connection. In the wakelife, this can be connected to the fact that I'm sorry I overspent some time on the Internet. Sigh.

Saturday, July 01, 2006

Post No. 1

Second half of the year begins today as I start a new blog, which is aimed at documenting some dream tales, researches and interpretations.

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Dreamt of 10Jun last night. (Slept @past 2 am after playing Literati with different Yahoo! gamers.) Apparently he's friends with "Jason," who borrows my car and returns it damaged. In another "episode," JojoP is there; we're in the old house. We are playing poker!!! Yet I don't know how to play the game and I am aware of it (in the dream)... The stakes are high...

Let's see what Keen Dreams will say.

POKER
Playing cards or watching a card game should serve as a general warning to be careful with your money. However, specific cards in certain suits have individual meanings that should be taken into account. The meanings for the face cards are as follows: King Clubs: You will receive assistance from a friend. Diamonds: You are in danger from an older man in a position of power. Hearts: You have found, or will soon find, true love. Spades: You will encounter opposition in attempting to achieve your goals. Queen Clubs: You need to straighten out your complicated love life. Diamonds: You will receive some good news concerning property. Hearts: You can expect to receive some happy romantic news. Spades: A misplaced confidence will lead to a nagging worry. Jack Clubs: You could suffer a loss through deceit and trickery. Diamonds: You will be receiving a gift or inheritance. Hearts: A new romance will make you very happy. Spades: There is a rival working against you.

CAR
The accelerator is often a symbol for control issues in your life. If you have a driving dream in which you are controlling the car's increasing speed, it means you will achieve your goals through hard work and perseverance. But if you dream that the accelerator is stuck and the car is out of control, it should be taken as a warning about a habit that could turn into an addiction.

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"If you're going to understand human behavior," says Rosalind Cartwright, a chairman of psychology at Rush University Medical Center in Chicago, "here's a big piece of it. Dreaming is our own storytelling time—to help us know who we are, where we're going and how we're going to get there."

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Why do I have vivid dreams all night long, every single night, while others say they never dream?

Barbara Kantrowitz: Unless you've had a brain injury or are taking certain kinds of medication, you dream every night. However, it is true that some people remember their dreams and others don't. There are many reasons for this, but researchers say that generally people who are more introverted and more psychologically oriented are more likely to remember their dreams. More practical people—doers rather than thinkers—are less likely to remember their dreams. You're also more likely to remember your dreams if you get a good night's sleep and wake up naturally (without an alarm).

Barbara Kantrowitz has been an editor and writer at NEWSWEEK since 1985. She has written dozens of cover stories on education and family issues and has won numerous awards for her work. She is also a published fiction writer. A graduate of Cornell University and the Columbia University Graduate School of Journalism, Kantrowitz lives in New York with her husband and two sons.

Source: http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/5568990/site/newsweek/